There are few things that I think people look forward to more than retirement. I'd always figured that I would anticipate mine for a whole school year and leave with hugs and tears from students and co-workers alike.
I "retired" almost a week ago, and it was nothing like that. It was quiet, and tearful, and -yes, freeing. After finding renewed joy in my profession of 29 years, this year has shown me that I no longer belong. Is that an oxymoron or what?!? At the same time I find joy and feelings of accomplishment with my students and parents, I feel that I can no longer keep pace with the demands of current trends in teaching. I feel a dinosaur; even while "proficiently" carrying out the requirements of my curriculum. And so, when the Lord provided me a way to pay back some years of retirement, I knew it was time to go.
Andy and I are both apprehensive about this move financially - it's a few years ahead of what we'd planned, but we are together in it. When you are waking up at night with a racing heart, and dread your classroom door opening, it's no fun anymore. I looked at myself and saw someone I didn't recognize; in this past week, I see myself returning.
So. It is finished. I will find a little something to do to bridge the cash-flow gap, but I have no regrets. Well, maybe a few; Lexy, Riley, Robert, Dawson - you get my drift.
Teaching is the most rewarding occupation the world has to offer - I gave it my best shot.
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You did better than just gave it your best shot. You taught kids to read. That changes lives! And just remember that just because you aren't in a classroom doesn't mean you aren't a teacher anymore. Its still you and you are still amazing!
I think after 29 years you gave it more than your best shot, you gave it your life. And during those years you did a good job, you loved your students, you helped them to grow and learn and helped them to feel successful.
It is time for you to feel successful!
It is finished, job well done!
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